Aiden Grace Kimbrell

I wander so many things now that you would be home with us. What color were your eyes? Would you be a sleepy baby, or alert already? How would your room look? Would you be chubby? My heart breaks everyday for you. You were so active and playful on your sonograms. I think you would have been so fun and full of life. You will always be my little peanut, pretty girl. I hope you know how much we love you and miss you, but it would break my heart if you saw the tears we cry. Me and your dad are better because of you. I hope that we make you proud to have us for parents. We try. Our lives are so empty without you in it. I just wanted to be a good mother to you. And to teach you everything we knew, and give you the best that we could. Even though you were gone, I was so proud of you. When I woke up from surgery, they brought me your pictures. The nurses asked if I wanted you then, or if I wanted to wait until I was in the room with the family. I told them I wanted you right then. We rode the surgery bed back to the room together. There was a family in the hall that had balloons and flowers. There was a live healthy baby and they were celebrating. They saw me with you, and they looked at me with such sadness. I just smiled. I was so glad to be your mother, and hold you. I knew that they were sad for me because they knew you were gone. But I felt at that moment I didn't need their pity. You were perfect. And yes I would have rather been celebrating your life, then mourning your death. But at that moment I was celebrating your little life. Mine and Daddy's miracle. Me and Daddy love you so sweetie!

I have started a project in your name sweetheart. To honor you and to help other Moms and Dads who lose their little ones. It's called Aidens project, and its to give something to the parents to remember their babies. We love and miss you baby.

The day that I found out I was pregnant with you, Your dad drove home from colorado city just to be with us and sent me back to wal-mart for more pregnancy tests. He wanted to be sure so he wouldn't be disappointed if I was wrong. He couldn't wait to see you on the ultrasound. When you died, he would cry in his sleep. We miss you so much sweetie. I come here almost everyday just to see you again. I know you will be waiting for us too. I can't wait to hold you again!

I remember when your Great Grandmother told me about you. I was so excited for your Mom. I knew you were going to be a very special gift from God for your Mom & Dad. May God hold you close until your Mommy and daddy see you again.

Sweety, lot of peace for you. God bless you and your family.